"And tell me, what's truly meant to be?"

27th Apr 06; Thursday-

I'm seething with anger right now.

I never expected that you really turn out to be so childish and screwed up.

Towards me, you're like "oh I'm sorry I regret what I did".

Behind me? You give others the impression that it's my fault I'm the bad guy I'm the one who screwed up the relationship.

HELLO, I'M NOT THE ONE WHO ACTUALLY SAID "I DON'T WANNA COMMIT" AND I'M ALSO NOT THE ONE WHO GOT TOGETHER WITH ANOTHER PERSON SO SOON AFTER A BREAKUP?

I can't believe I had actually wanted to get back with you so badly.

I can't believe that I was so stupid to think you could be someone I could honestly be happy with.

I can't believe I sacrificed family time, friends time and made horrible decisions for this relationship.

I can't believe I thought you were really serious with me.

Why couldn't you tell me right from the start that you were not gonna be serious with me?

Why make me go through 6 months of thinking that you were serious?

I'm not saying it's ALL your fault, but the point is:

I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ACTUALLY HAVE THE NERVE TO MAKE ME SEEM LIKE THE BAD GUY.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I WASTED MY TIME, EFFORT AND FEELINGS ON YOU.

FUCK YOU.

she sang away at | 2:26 PM

20th Apr 06; Thursday-

Wooooh.

Had bAoc for the past 3 days.

bAoc = School of Business and Accountancy Orientation Camp 06.

Don't know why they call it a camp when we didn't even stay over.

Ah well.

Wasn't exactly veeeeeeeeeeeeeery fun la, but overall it was okay I guess.

Just wish I that I was in a more enthusiastic group.

AH WELL.

BOMBASTIC MOMBASA 6 ALL THE WAY! =)

This year's theme was different dance festivals from different countries.

Mine's an African tribal dance festival or something.

I really love Amy's group la.

Theirs is about masquerades, so everything's more classy.

Daaaaaaamn cool.

I really don't wanna start school la.

Checked my timetable. I have school from 9am-3pm on Mon+Tue, 9am-11am on Wed, 10am-4pm on Thurs and 8am-11am on Fri. Oh but for 1st week of school I only need to go for lectures, so..I get to go school at 2pm for 1 hour for most of the days. Heh.

I know my timetable's not very packed la, but.. I just can't get used to the fact that I'M GONNA START STUDYING AGAIN AFTER 5MONTHS!!!

BAH. =(

I'm gonna have to start making new friends, getting used to a new environment and worrying over what to wear every morning.

AND I have to wake up at 930am tomorrow for cca day and I don't wanna go.

But if I don't go, I don't know what cca to join.

I DON'T LIKE POLYYYYY ANYMOREEEEE.

LOL fancy that, me saying I don't like poly when I haven't even started school. -snorts

Sighhhhh.

bA school is full of primary school friends and some cheenabongs. =(

I'm wondering whether I should have taken FSV instead.

Wonder how the people in there are like.

At least I'll know most of them because there are only around 80 in that course, whereas for Business we have 280 students.

BAH.

I know I'm being a brat with all these whining and complaints, but..

Sighhhhhhhhh.

Don't know la. I'll just have to wait and see how things will really work out to be like.

OH and YES I'm sorry for being a kuku by saying this, but...I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I'M LYING ON MY BED WHILE TYPING THIS POST.

I LOVE WIRELESS.

IT'S DAMN COOL.

BUT my bloody laptop's screwing up already.

Fu*kkkkkkkkk la.

Acer really sucks afterall. Shit.

Gonna ask them for a replacement.

Am looking forward for next Mon.

NOT because school's starting, but because there's gonna be a Fish n Co Wheelock + Thesimplelife chalet!!

It's so cool can? A chalet with your work friends.

Once in a lifetime thing.

Can't wait. =D

she sang away at | 12:02 AM

11th April 06; Tuesday-

Sighhhhh.

I hate it when it's one of those times where I feel left behind.

So many friends are either in JC or still in Ntss.

And me? Caught up in my worklife.

After awhile people will just slowly lose contact with you because you're constantly working and you can't go out with them.

But when you're free, they aren't.

And that's when I feel left behind (in an odd sense).

It's hard to describe exactly how I feel la.

I just feel that I'm missing out on a lot.

That sucks. =(

Sighhhhh.

All that aside, school starts in about 2 weeks.

Not really that looking forward to school.

Lol.

My laptop's still not here yet! Baaah.

Met Shar Soon Yunhao the other day in Town.

Miss those crazy people. IF YOU GIRLS ARE READING THIS, PLEASE RECONFIRM WHETHER WE'RE GOING OUT!!

Lol.

Work at Liquid Kitchen is so much more relaxed compared to Fish n Co.

The smoke really sucks though. REAAAAAAAALLY bad.

BUT the pay's so damn good, how can I resist? Lol.

Met Yvee at Bugis the other day too.Miss you girl! Come out with the rest of the fubus soon lehhhh.

I really wanna keep in touch with sec sch friends, because they are the ones who sort of grew up with you?

Among so many friends from everywhere, they probably are the ones who know you the best.

Sighhhh nostalgia.

she sang away at | 1:35 AM

4th April 06; Tuesday-

My God.

It's APRIL already.

School's starting in TWENTY days!!

Whooh.

I can't wait for the arrival of my ACER 3282!!

Think it's coming next Monday or something.

Ladeeda. No more borrowing of Teresa's laptop! (Teresa, you must be damn happy =D)

So hmmm. I got another job at Liquid Kitchen!

It's just opposite my house.

So happy that I finally got a better-paying job. =)

Hopefully the environment will be a nice place to work in, though it's a smoke-filled place. =(

AH WELL.

Pros and cons of working at a bar/restaurant/cafe.

Went to Steven's house the other day for his mini farewell party.

Didn't send him off the next day because I had to go pray. (Qing Ming Jie)

So sadddddd. I'll miss him. =(

she sang away at | 6:29 PM